I hear the Savior say, “Thy strength indeed is small. Child of weakness, watch and pray. Find in me thine all in all.”
I hear the Savior say, “Child — you are weak, your strength is small. You can do nothing apart from me. But watch, dear one. Watch and pray. Stay alert, keep awake; be careful to do all that I have commanded you. And daughter? You shall find that as you seek me, and long to be near to me, I am actually not far from you. In me you will be full, and you will find the sweetest satisfaction.”
Discipleship is not limited to what you can comprehend — it must transcend all comprehension. Plunge into the deep waters beyond your own comprehension, and I will help you to comprehend even as I do. Bewilderment is the true comprehension. Not to know where you are going is the true knowledge. My comprehension transcends yours. Thus Abraham went forth from his father and not knowing whither he went. He trusted himself to my knowledge, and cared not for his own, and thus he took the right road and came to his journey’s end.
Behold, that is the way of the cross.
You cannot find it yourself, so you must let me lead you as though you were a blind man. Wherefore it is not you, no man, no living creature, but I myself, who instruct you by my work and Spirit in the way you should go. Not the work which you choose, not the suffering you devise, but the road which is clean contrary to all that you choose or contrive or desire — that is the road you must take. To that I call you and in that you must be my disciple. If you do that, there is the acceptable time and there your master is come. (Luther)
Ah, and so if bewilderment is the true comprehension, then I comprehend fully. If not knowing where I am going is the true knowledge, then what I know is the real thing.
I’ll trust You fully, Father, and I’ll learn how to let die the cares of this world and journey with you towards that glorious end.
Like a blind man, lead me. Like a child, needing to be redirected at every turn, instruct me by your work and Spirit in the way I should go.
And after you have suffered a little while, the God of all grace, who has called you to his eternal glory in Christ, will himself restore, confirm, strengthen, and establish you. To him be the dominion forever and ever. Amen. (1 peter 5)
These weeks of September have been overwhelming in many good, wonderful ways. The Lord has been tender in guiding my often misguided steps. The Spirit has strengthened my often trembling spirit as only He can. And it’s been good. But gracious, is it really already the 19th of September? How quickly time flies.
Last week the moon was full and in China everyone munched on mooncakes and got a few days off for the Mid-Autumn Festival. I didn’t get any days off, but I did have some friends over and made some mooncakes and we spoke in Chinese and ate with chopsticks.
Otherwise, I’m staying busy, spending lots and lots of time at the hospital working and learning and really loving what I’m doing. I’m learning to enjoy coffee with friends, but times are not yet dire enough to demand coffee as a requirement for alertness (thankgoodness).
Just like clockwork, as soon as the last crazy few months died down for our family (the whirlwind trip to the USA), adventures picked up again and Ben is back in China after 18 faithful and successful months in Taiwan.
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Where is he off to next? Probably lots of places. Hopefully he’ll end up not far from me. I could definitely use a little bit more family in my vicinity. Lots of changes and it’s all good. It’s all so very good.
photo by Naomi
photo by Naomi
School has begun for those high-schoolers in the picture above, and homeschooling along with running a very busy orphan care project is keeping my family tremendously busy.
Oh sing to Jehovah (“the existing One”) a new song,
for he has done marvelous things!
Make a joyful noise to Jehovah, all the earth;
break forth into joyous song and sing praises!